Monday, December 31, 2007

Thanks DAD

Dear Dad
Thanks once again for the wonderful conversation today. It's always nice to know I have your support and love.
Thanks also for making 2007 so wonderful for us.
Your display of generosity, kindness and support is always appreciated.
The effort you make, and the time you take to spend with us is amazing.
Your unfailing attitude and consideration will never be forgotten.
Lets look forward to a 2008 that will no doubt bring new levels of surprises and wonders.
With all my thanks, once again.W
and if you can't recognise sarcasm when you see/read it.... you need to get glasses............................

When they die...

A friend of mine's dad died recently. He was ill for a while so they knew it would happen.

I went to the funeral, and many people said many nice things about him.

I sat there thinking:"Would I be able to say nice things about my Dad?"

The answer was no.
My anger stands in the way of that.
I have nothing to say that's nice other than "he gave me money".

That is his legacy to me. He gave me money. He ignored me, ostracised me, blatantly favoured my sister and other family. never tried to spend family time with me.

But he gave me money.

I hope that when he dies, the gates of where ever he goes has a check list of things you gave, that don't take money to give ,is the list you have to tick before getting into anything nice.

Time ( )
Love ( )
Friendship ( )
Advice ( )
Kindness ( )
Caring ( )
Help ( )
Trust ( )
Compassion ( )
Emotional support ( )
Humility ( )
Consideration ( )
Compromise ( )


He'll not get in anywhere nice if that is the case. But what the heck, he's eaten in every nice restaurant in the world. Perhaps that will carry him through for eternity.

I hope it's fuckin hot in that kitchen!!!

Family time - or NOT!

Dear Dad

Thanks for not participating in my life.
Thanks for not being there for my School days, sports days, play rehearsals, scraped knees, heartache, and troubles.
Thanks for being in the same city, country etc, but never offering me your time or emotional support.

Thanks for treating my mother like shit when you went off with another woman ( after sleeping with umpteen others during your marriage), and making sure that my mother is now penniless and you are more wealthy than you could ever imagine.

Thanks for introducing me to your mistresses, even when you were married to my mother, and making no effofrt to hide your adultery.

Thanks for not trying to spend any family holidays with me, and only seeing me when my kids are around.
Thanks for being the cold, shallow, spineless individual I grew up to hate.
Thanks for making me more and more angry as the years went on.
Thanks for being more and more distant as the years went on, and not trying anything to actually be a father.

Thanks for not trying with her, or with me.

You are the man that has money. That 'pays' family to be loyal and to shut up and say the right thing.
You control the family with money.
You control the houses, the schools and the livelihoods.
You simply spout out what your wife wants you to say to family, so they do it.
You have no spine to make your own decisions.
You have no guts to stand up to her.
Perhaps you don't actually want it.
perhaps you actually like it this way, being a coward suits you.
Perhas you don't give a fuck either way, as long as you get you fucks.

I hope it's worth it.

Will you die fulfilled? Happy?

You'll certainly die rich, but you'll still be a coward in my eyes.

I hate you.

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Father is not a christmas

I'm angry. Angry at my father, who doesn't do enough, to actually deserve the respect of a father. He doesn't try hard enough, or give a f%&k enough to actually care about me. He only panders and rewards sycophants who say exactly what he wants to hear, and when he wants to hear it.

I don't play that game, I say it as it is, and he cuts me out of his life because of it. He only rewards the ones that lie, steal and say anything to get his money.

I'm fuckin angry tonight.

Merry Christmas.